Um.

Dear Undisclosed Person #3,

Wow you must be incredibly thick. Must is the wrong word, you ARE incredibly thick. How much more obvious can a person get about something like this? Clearly not obvious enough. You say we're "really good friends" but I'm finding that hard to believe as of late, because if we were and if you really cared about me at all, you would've told me about your girlfriend. I thought we were close too, but looks like I may have been mistaken. I am glad that you know I won't be wasting my time to visit you because I'm not one to put myself in awkward & uncomfortable situations. Not like you even deserve to see me after all this. Once you learn how to communicate with people better, maybe we'll be alright. You just really know how to fuck things up.

Not one bit.

Dear Undisclosed Persons,

Person #1. I'm sorry I don't feel the same way about you. But the thing you may not understand is that I've been where you are SO many times. It feels as though you're ignoring me now and I wish that we could talk about it, it hurts me that it seems like you're shutting me out and I want to believe that's not the truth. I know it hurts, I've felt it, but all I want is for us to continue to be friends, because we're good as that.

Person #2 We cuddled. whatever. It's not a big deal. It'd be cool if we could hang out, but it honestly doesn't matter. It won't be the end of the world to me if you're not interested. I'm too old for all this.

Oh the summertime.

C-Ville.

So I stayed the night because SW asked us too. I sat on your lap and we talked. We played with leaves for like 15 minutes, I love the fact that you're also entertained by the little things in life. You're super nice and not to mention adorable. But knowing my luck & track record it'll be a passing thing. Hopefully not though. & hopefully you're not crazy!
& gee everyone, BUT you asked me to cuddle with them. I ignore their requests and try to figure out how I'll get the ending I want.
SW, you and I are all in this tiny bed for our slumber party deciding if this is a good idea. When SW tells us he's going to the couch, I'm having a Laura Linney Love Actually moment.
I turn towards the wall & wait. Nothing happens, I'm a bit disappointed.
BUT THEN you pull me over & put your arm around me & we hold hands until we wake.
All in all my hand was a bit numb & my back hurt a little, but it was all worth it.
My wish on an airplane came true.


23 June
After a walk in the woods, we're sitting on a log and you ask to kiss me.
Sorry, but I don't think of you that way.

Apparently I've got WOMS. (Thanks JEM)