BOYS

01. CPR,
I knew from the moment I meant you, something had changed. You brought a fire into my life that I didn’t know I needed. I know everything about you and I feel like I’ve known you forever. Nothing will ever change that, even if we have our squabbles now and then, even though they’re never THAT bad you mean the world to me. And simple moments like holding hands and listening to music in your bed make my life what it is and I cherish that. You’ve seen and know every bit of me and I couldn’t imagine life without you. Commiserating with you is the best& I’m glad that we’re usually on the same page. & I do think we could live together, I was just under bad influences when I said we couldn’t. (& I’m sorry for getting ahead of myself before putting you first, I went a bit crazy & lost myself in the process) As long as you don’t lick your bowl. :)

02. LGT
You are without a doubt one of the best people I’ve ever met in my entire life. You’ve gone through so much and you’re such an amazing selfless person and I’m extremely glad to have met you. My mom still wants us to be together . I can’t thank you for the numerous times you’ve helped me out and been there for me. I will always be there for you whenever you need something you can always count on me. Always.


03. NPR,
We’ve known each other for a little over 10 years now and you were one of the first friends I made when I moved here. You meant so much to me then and you still do now even though we don’t talk to each other at all anymore. I don’t know why it is or how it happened, it just seems like you moved on and I wasn’t so important to you anymore. It’s like your new life means everything and I’m just left in the dust. I’m always the one to try and talk to you and contact you first and I wish it wasn’t like that. I miss you and me, I miss everything and I wish that you felt the same way; I wish you thought about me the way I think about you. I know that we’ll know each other for our whole lives and there are memories we have together that will never be replaced. Like the fact that you were my first kiss on that cold Halloween night when we were 14 years old. I was wearing my homecoming dress and the streetlights were dull as we stopped to talk for a bit. Katey urged you to just do it and I was a bit nervous, but I knew it’d be okay because it was you. And I’d like to think that night brought us closer, but maybe it was the last day of third grade when you chased me on the desks. It’s 2:57am and this is what I stay up late thinking about, while watching horror movies of course. I find myself thinking I wish things could go back to the way they were and I know they can’t and never will, but I wish some of what we had could come back. I feel like I'm not the type of person you want to be around anymore and that hurts. I'll always be there for you if you ever needed me and I'll always be waiting on that blanket you promised me all those years ago.


04. CR,
I can't wait until you get back from France because I missed you and you're always going to be special to me, you played a big part in who I am today and I'm so glad for that. That summer. :) & I want to hear all about your adventures.

05.PKM
Even though we’ve had our fights here and there I’m glad that we always come out of it okay and that we’re able to talk to each other about our issues like adults. We’ve known each other for such a long time and we’ve definitely matured. I love having our late night chats in the car. SKINNY JEANS!

07. MH,
From the moment we met we had this connection, like we’d known each other before. You understand me so well and it’s wild how we’re on the same page. We haven’t known each other for that long, but it feels like it’s been ages. & I love an instant connection. I know we’ll be friends forever, including the next life hehe.

08. JC
I kind of think you’re perfect. You’re funny, smart, cool, talented, cute, and everything in between. I would never tell you this to your face because you’re the type of person I’ll probably never be with. Maybe in 10 years when we’re 30, I’ll tell you all about it.

09. CP
There are so many things left unsaid, I left, I came back and I wanted us to be friends. It was sort of working and then you left without a word. (I'll never tell you that I knew something was different the night I found out you left. I felt it and I thought of you and I was right) It kind of hurt me because I still wanted to talk to you and hang out and get to a point where we’d be cool with each other. I mean I know we sort of were, but we didn’t have a lot of time to figure it all out. I would’ve liked to, maybe one day, but who really knows? Even though you think you're a complete & total asshole, which you can be, there are good qualities about you and I think you're afraid to see that and break out of the mold you've been put into. You can be a better person, who you are now doesn't have to be the end all be all. You'll get older and hopefully you'll realize that and if so I'd like to be there to see it.